when i thought i was able to let go , i was wrong . i cant , i just cant . i've fallen too deep for you . yesterday night when you said those things , it hurts . though it was only a short conversation , it still hurts . why do we have to break our close friend relationship just because of her ? yes , i said it's ohkay . but it isnt ohkay at all . not a single bit . i dont want to break it . &never ever wanted . you've hurt me deeply . real deep inside .

i miss those times when we used to hug &kiss each other . those times when we used to hang out &have fun together . you would give in to me &smile at me . &when you're down , i would just sit by the side &listen to you . i find it a joy though at times you would ignore &neglect me , i dont mind . im contented as long as im able to stand by you . &whenever i cry , you would hug me &ask me to stop crying , then give me a kiss to assure me that you'll always be there for me .

you'll always make me smile &you'll always listen to me . i know that period of time is short . but im happy , i really am . i told myself not to fall for you , but i did . &loving you hurts . i dont know if you've ever loved me , i dare not ask &im afraid to know . there are so many questions in my mind left unknown . i wanted to ask , but the thought of her always stops me from asking .

im sure you still remember . those days , those times . the 1st time i cried , the 1st time you kissed me , the 1st time you hugged me . it was all you . i miss you . i really miss you . why do you have to leave me all alone when i needed you the most ? what's with all those promises you made to me ? have you forgotten every single one of it ? if it is meant to be a hoax , then why bother to do so much &giving me hopes ? baby , you're hurting me even more ..

each &everything you said had all been written down in my heart . i remember every single one of it . i'll never forget , what about you ? guess you've forgotten all of it urh ? i dont know what to say or think now . here i am crying &you're there happily ever after with her .

sigh -

baby , i want you back .. T.T